Saving the World
Today I woke up utterly, completely exhausted and overwhelmed. Barely able to function, even though there is laundry to be done, groceries to buy, and bills to be paid before the work week starts again.
I am too empty and too full. My heart hurts and I can’t do anything about the school shootings.
I can’t keep the bees from dying
I can’t make people care about truth.
Mother Earth is the Big Boss and she is pissed and she doesn’t appear willing or able to put up with us Users and Abusers for much longer. I feel helpless and worried.
What in the world can I do? I can’t even get my kid to put the clean dishes away properly or wear his bike helmet to school.
I regarded this overwhelm of mine this morning and put on my headphones and played a meditation. The knot in my chest eased a bit.
I made breakfast and shared some with my son. Sitting with him and having our breakfast is soothing. I’ve taught my children to respect truth, even if my son tells tales about wearing his helmet.
It’s okay that I can’t save the world today.
Life gets big and sharp and jagged, I try and remember to wrap my arms around what I know and go inside when I need to.
I marvel at the thought of how powerful it would be if all the current players on the chaotic world stage at the moment took the time for meditation and reflection, how different the world would be right now. Instantly. And I understand that putting my fretting aside and sitting my weary tuckus down to meditate is not as small as I think. It’s huge.
It’s what is called for. It’s what I can do right now.